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Tuesday, 19 October 2010

  • Interestingly, this thing is useful.

    I haven't written in this for a long damn time, in fact it hasn't crossed my mind. Truthfully I used to write here to try to convey my feelings to the readers, and I didn't do a bad job really. *music.. need Music* Ok now that the music is turned on... I looked back at a few of my old blogs, and I realize that they can actually benefit me. I'm sure they also benefit Angie in knowing whats going on in our lives down here.

    Angie, I don't want to feel this distanced from you, I'm not sure why it feels like this but it feels disturbing. We used to be so close, and I can't just bring myself to let this good thing go. I'm sorry for jumping on you when you gave your opinion on my DJ job, you're probably right. I'll probably fail at this, because I usually fail at everything.

    But I refuse to give up.. I don't know if I can make anything out of this at all, but I'm doing my best to make connections locally and find business. I'm working my ass off downloading more music than I can really sort in a 60 hour period.. and I'm doing it all on just a whimper of a simple dream.

    I'm really trying my best.. And I'm still trying to find a decent part-time job so I can get a car to go back to school. I've also been trying to learn how to play the guitar, working on videos, working on my fan page, posting fliers, filling out applications, harassing my friend who is the GM of Burger King for a job, and just generally trying to keep my spirits intact.

    I can tend to get discouraged easily.. especially when trying something like this way out of my comfort zone. The way I see it though is I have lacked financial stability for over 3 years now. Life has simply went from one disaster to the next.. ... lol I'm an experienced PC repairman, Web-Designer, DJ, PC builder, Cook, Musician, Forklift Driver, General laborer, Re-mixer, and factory worker among other things, yet I still can't find a decent job. No matter what I try to do I end up in the hole feeling like scum of the Earth.

    But.. I guess there is one good thing.. My family and friends are all being 100% supportive of my DJ ambition. They all believe that I can pull this off.. and I don't want to let them down.. because I've never had this kind of support.. I'm not even sure why.. but it feels nice to have support from the same bunch that normally lack faith in me. I can't let this go, I CAN DO IT!

    I'm writing this.. in HTML actually. It isn't hard, and I'd rather not have to learn the Xanga editing buttons.. especially for font colors.. lawl.. Oh gawd I should really make myself a playlist instead of just playing the whole DJ folder.. I don't find 100% of my DJ stuff 'agreeable' to my tastes..---Back to topic I'm even so adept at HTML and the like that I can ninja stuff from pages that I want (images ect) by looking at the code.. Its not really that complicated really.

    So.. anyway I've spent alot of time lately just working my ass off for one project or another, keeping myself moderately busy. Between the long spurts of working I've managed to clock 30+ hours on Final Fantasy XIII (amazing game, srsly) which has been quite fun actually. I'm now on disc 3 and I have to GRIND (joy).. But I guess its what I have to do to finish out the game and see the ending, part of which I accidentally read when looking up guides on leveling up..

    I have noticed though... that I've been spending less and less time on the internets for one reason or another. Perhaps its because I've been spending alot of time just working or chilling with Bonnie. Usually we're together 24/7. ... oh yeah.. Forgot to mention here that I'm living at her house now. I've been accepted as part of the family. Its quite odd because back in the day I got kicked to the curb just for sleeping in my car in front of her house for a week or so. I honestly have no idea where this came from, but its nice.

    We had just gotten done playing music in the garage actually.. We were all out there just having a fun damn time.. lol. Me, Blue, Bonnie, and a friend of ours that we've recently started talking to named Robbie. Robbie had kind of a rough start in life, and spent time in boot camp for a few mistakes he made when we were in high school together. We kind of grew apart, but hey its nice to hang out with "Captain Albino" again.

    Anyway, I'm gonna cut this entry off at this point. I was running out of stuff to talk about and Bonnie told me I had better go play Final Fantasy because she has it all set up for me. =D

     

     

    ~Laserous The Traveler

Tuesday, 31 August 2010

Friday, 30 July 2010

  • Oh Xanga.

    Why do I only think of things to write here before bed?

    I should start posting here more, maybe it will help with all my damn social inadequacy.

    My Day:

    I spent most of my day just sitting around bored. Bonnie got on the internets at about 11 PM and she was feeling creative. I wasn't really feeling creative at all, but hell, I decided to try my hand at a new song anyway. I made a new one.. and its pretty kickass but I think I'll give it more work and try to squeeze some of my friends really hard for a good critique.

    Its hard getting a good critique. All I has is my Bonnie to halp.

    Anyone that is subscribed to me can hear it, I'll e-mail you a copy. Just message meh.

Thursday, 22 July 2010

  • The box.

    I am in a box.
    My box has four walls, no windows, and a door with an old keyhole.
    The keyhole in my box is locked.
    The keyhole looks rusted, somewhat decayed, almost as if the edges of the metal are jagged.
    This door is locked from the inside.
    Where is the key I ponder, oh where would it be?
    For it had been so long since I misplaced it.
    In my many years inside the box my state of consciousness has accepted this.
    I would even say that it had been greeted.
    Sitting alone in the darkness with only a sliver of light as my guide into the outside, I studied what I saw from my vantage point.
    I understood what happens in life.
    I understood how people think.
    The entire time I had been sitting in my box, I couldn't see what was inside with me.
    How could I?
    The door was locked.
    I couldn't let anyone in to my box.
    I couldn't get out of my box.
    Once upon a chance I eventually decided that life was better in my box.
    Life, as I knew it, could simply take place in my box.
    Of course, it was that simple.
    Things are not always what they seem.
    In a box with no light, and only a keyhole, I could easily miss the big picture.
    What could there possibly be outside my box that I couldn't see with my keyhole?
    Where did I leave the key?
    I would never know the answer without looking for it.
    I found my key.
    My key was under a stack of old pillows in the corner of my box.
    I found it by chance, while sleeping.
    I had a sharp stabbing pain in my back, and that is how I discovered it.
    I opened the door and to my astonishment there was something outside my box.
    What I saw was not what I had expected.
    What I saw was not what I wanted.
    What I saw was something different that I had planned.
    Outside my box, I found that even the world I could see from my keyhole was inside a box of its own.
    Instead of four walls this box has walls laden with fire.
    The world outside my box was burning it seemed.
    This new world I had ventured into turned me away before I had a chance to catch my breath.
    The rafters suspended inside this new box came crashing down, burning beside me.
    I can feel the warmth.
    It is disturbing, even in my dreams.
    This new box was nothing but a facade.
    I never had the strength to open the door.
    I never had the will to use the key that I found.
    I never found the courage to open the door.
    I had been lying on the floor of my own box, half comatose clutching the key closely to my chest, remembering why I lost it.
    The key wasn't lost, I hid it from myself to avoid the fires.
    As I sit in the darkness with my four walls clutching my key.
    I realize that nothing had changed.
    I never ventured out of my box.
    I cautiously looked through the keyhole.
    And now I am left with just this realization.
    I am in a box.

Tuesday, 27 April 2010

  • LOL I love my mom.

    AND I QUOTE STRAIGHT FROM YIM:
    (4:37:33 PM) aqualady3@ymail.com: I didn't say you were "bad". I'm proud that you are not running the streets stealing, drinking, and strung out, you know.
    (4:38:06 PM) laserous_decayed: YOU MEAN I COULD DO ALL THAT COOL STUFF?!
    (4:38:37 PM) aqualady3@ymail.com: I don't think so!
    (4:38:49 PM) laserous_decayed: This sounds more fun than flagging down the Ice Cream truck with a Flaregun!
    (4:39:06 PM) aqualady3@ymail.com: LOL.

Monday, 12 April 2010

Friday, 09 April 2010

Tuesday, 06 April 2010

Thursday, 25 March 2010

  • BORED lol.

    (8:19:33 PM) Laser: Hewwo
    (8:25:23 PM) Laser: *buzz*
    (8:30:45 PM) Laser: ANGIE!
    (8:30:47 PM) Laser: ANGIE!
    (8:30:49 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:30:51 PM) Laser: beep

    (8:30:52 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:30:56 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:06 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:07 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:08 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:09 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:09 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:10 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:10 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:11 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:12 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:12 PM) Laser: beep
    (8:31:18 PM) Laser: Quit being fuckin afk
    (8:31:22 PM) Laser: Arghhhh
    (8:31:28 PM) Laser: RAWR!
    (8:31:32 PM) Laser: Negrow!
    (8:31:41 PM) Laser: Negrow / Worgen.. hmmm
    (8:31:51 PM) Laser: Negrow = Worgen spelled backwards lolz
    (8:34:13 PM) Laser: ANGIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11!1111!!!!1111!!!!13/11342422345767676!!!^#&^$*(%&(^(%*&^($*&^#(*&#^(*&^(*&^(*&^
    (8:34:16 PM) Laser: OMGAZ
    (8:34:19 PM) Laser: ZOMG
    (8:34:20 PM) Laser: moo
    (8:34:22 PM) Laser: Imma cow
    (8:34:24 PM) Laser: mooooo
    (8:34:26 PM) Laser: Woof
    (8:34:32 PM) Laser: So I'll talk to myself
    (8:34:40 PM) Laser: Las: Hey how ya doing?
    (8:34:51 PM) Laser: I'm alright I guess, I wish Angie wasn't afk
    (8:35:07 PM) Laser: Las: Yeah inorite? She's all like playing Rock band or some shit
    (8:35:18 PM) Laser: Gawd. I hear ya, so how you been?
    (8:35:37 PM) Laser: Las: I'm ok I guess. kinda bored and not really wanting to play WoW for some reason
    (8:35:55 PM) Laser: Well, me either, I don't wanna do dailys, dailys suck
    (8:36:11 PM) Laser: Las: I heard Angie got Ambassador, thats fuckin 1337
    (8:36:21 PM) Laser: Yeah I know, crazy ass achievement grinder
    (8:36:45 PM) Laser: Las: You're just too lazy to grind achievements out like her, you're too worried about gear.
    (8:36:58 PM) Laser: ... Shut up. Atleast I get to raid.. kinda
    (8:37:13 PM) Laser: Las: You call VoA or some old ass Burning Crusade shit raiding?
    (8:37:23 PM) Laser: -.- ok so I never get to raid
    (8:37:31 PM) Laser: Las: So whats the point of gear?
    (8:37:37 PM) Laser: It grows my E-Peen
    (8:37:53 PM) Laser: Las: Oh, yeah I'm sure you'd like a bigger E-Peen.. LMAO
    (8:38:05 PM) Laser: Whatever, anyway, so.. what you wanna do?
    (8:38:20 PM) Laser: Las: Fuck idk, how do you play a 2 player game with yourself?
    (8:38:28 PM) Laser: Is that possible?
    (8:38:51 PM) Laser: Las: Idk, but its not like you're not being counter-productive enough for both of us already.
    (8:39:08 PM) Laser: Oh gee thanks. Yeah well I could play with a remixer or something.
    (8:39:18 PM) Laser: Las: Oh? So you could fail like always?
    (8:39:36 PM) Laser: Q.Q I know I need more practice... but I could own your ass in PvP
    (8:39:54 PM) Laser: Las: Not possible brah, you can't play 2 accounts at a time with only 2 hands.
    (8:40:15 PM) Laser: Yeah I could.. with one of thouse mouse things with all the fucked up buttons on it
    (8:40:31 PM) Laser: Las: Yeah but who the hell would watch 1 guy duel himself?
    (8:40:41 PM) Laser: Angie would but she's on hiatus
    (8:40:48 PM) Laser: Las: Name someone else.
    (8:40:55 PM) Laser: .... Fuck you not fair
    (8:41:00 PM) Laser: Las: Haha
    (8:41:04 PM) Laser: Yeah well..
    (8:41:23 PM) Laser: Las: So, what are you wearing?
    (8:42:01 PM) Laser: The same thing you're wearing.. duh
    (8:42:16 PM) Laser: Las: I noticed you had to stop typing to change the misic.
    (8:42:25 PM) Laser: Music dumbass.
    (8:42:38 PM) Laser: Las: Shut up.
    (8:42:51 PM) Laser: hmm.. You're damn boring
    (8:43:04 PM) Laser: Las: If I'm boring then you're boring by association.
    (8:43:23 PM) Laser: ....
    (8:43:33 PM) Laser: Las: Gotcha on that one didn't I slick?
    (8:43:39 PM) Laser: Shut up n00b.
    (8:43:48 PM) Laser: Las: I'm not a n00b and you know it.
    (8:43:56 PM) Laser: Yeah you are, you just hide it well.
    (8:44:06 PM) Laser: Las: Ha, you're probably right
    (8:44:17 PM) Laser: Well, this song sucks
    (8:44:25 PM) Laser: Las: yeah why'd you put it on?
    (8:44:31 PM) Laser: For Bonnie to hear it
    (8:44:43 PM) Laser: Las: You should probably hang out with her brah
    (8:44:58 PM) Laser: But she's boring atm! She's all like.. I gotta play meh WoW
    (8:45:13 PM) Laser: Las: Yeah well what would you be doing with her otherwise?
    (8:45:32 PM) Laser: ..... ..... ... .. . um.. .. idk lol
    (8:45:43 PM) Laser: Las: Angie still isn't back.
    (8:45:47 PM) Laser: I know lol
    (8:45:54 PM) Laser: Las: You think she'll read this?
    (8:46:11 PM) Laser: Nah, I bet she'll not notice, so Imma post it to Xanga because I can
    (8:46:39 PM) Laser: Las: We've really gotta come up with a good idea for a YouTube show and make some damn money.
    (8:46:59 PM) Laser: Yeah I know, If I can effectively carry on a conversation with myself that shouldn't be a problem
    (8:47:05 PM) Laser: Las: LOL
    (8:47:13 PM) Laser: LOL God I made myself lol
    (8:47:29 PM) Laser: Las: Time to post to Xanga?
    (8:47:53 PM) Laser: Yep, after you laugh at yourself on your own chat I think its time to share your insanity with the world.

Wednesday, 17 March 2010

Monday, 22 February 2010

  • So on saturday I got to do my "DJ" job. Its alot of fun really, especially when I know that all the kids walk away happy. Bonnie and I make the perfect team at everything, this is no exception.

    I put on mostly music thats on the raido for the kids, stuff that I personally screened for content (its clean.. made sure of it). It was a night full of smiles and kids having fun, little horny preteens begging me to play moar slow songs.

    I really love doing it, hopefully it will eventually amount to something, perhaps a little job endeavor.



    (My booth.. The dance was in a fire hall, the coats behind me are fireman outfits.)


    (Bonnie)



    (My Brother and his date)
     
    (My sister and her date)

     
    (Kids having fun)

    All in all I had alot of fun, kinda wish I could show you more. Next time maybe I'll bring a video camera.


    ~DJ Laserous

Thursday, 28 January 2010

Laserous

  • Visit Laserous's Xanga Site
    • Member Since: 10/26/2008

My Life List


[X] Graduate High School with an advance diploma
[X] Visit Universal Studios in Orlando
[X] Find Happiness with Bonnie
[X] Learn whether or not I'm Bi
[X] Give a stranger money if they need it
[X] Buy a New Car
[X] LOSE a new car (lol)
[X] Get a job at a factory for good money
[X] Quit a job instead of get fired
[X] Get Zelda 64 version 1.0 (gold cartridge)
[X] Bury the hatchet between me and dad
[X] Do something that risks my life
[X] Lose my virginity
[X] Get engaged to Bonnie
[X] Take time off to be free
[ ] Get a college degree
[ ] Meet Angie
[ ] Learn to fly an aircraft.
[ ] Learn to draw
[ ] Go skiing / snowboarding
[ ] Get a boat
[ ] Have a website with many users
[ ] Visit every state in the US
[ ] Do something interesting in every state.
[ ] Visit Japan and kiss a native
[ ] Visit Europe and urinate on a landmark
[ ] GO TO AMSTERDAM
[ ] Skydive
[ ] Travel in a group that includes Angie
[ ] Have a 4-sum
[ ] Write my own wedding vows
[ ] Have a party-style wedding
[ ] Either wedding rings on necklaces -OR- Tattoos
[ ] Bring others on the honeymoon
[ ] Have 2 kids no sooner than age 31
[ ] Live free or die trying
[ ] Remember and charish every moment
[ ] Take a commercial flight
[ ] Learn to dance
[ ] Lose weight
[ ] Don't die until age 110
[ ] Learn how to make easy money
[ ] Be successful
[ ] Make Psyrix Leap a reality
[ ] Be optomistic
[ ] Leave the pain behind me
[ ] Feel sexy
[ ] Give a stranger something fantastic
[ ] Find more REAL friends
[ ] Be more creative
[ ] Find satisfaction in my hairstyle
[ ] Learn to cook better
[ ] Become a respected University Professor
[ ] Enhance the lives of 100 people
[ ] Do voice acting for money
[ ] Actually be a leader of something
[ ] Unlock hidden musical talent
[ ] Learn to ride a motorcycle
[ ] Do studies for a university
[ ] Learn to be a pro photographer
[ ] Paint how I feel on more than 5 canvases
[ ] Rekindle old friendships
[ ] Live near a beach
[ ] Own a 4 wheeler
[ ] Consider being a commercial pilot for a time
[ ] Have a solid career and CHANGE IT
[ ] Adopt a starving child from a third world country
[ ] See a tornado IRL
[ ] Protect someone from a hostile enemy
[ ] Be who I am, not who I'm expected to be
[ ] Still have sex when I'm 70
[ ] Learn more about philosophy
[ ] Program a game
[ ] Own a real sword
[ ] Train in martial arts
[ ] Get a tattoo
[ ] Work to help reform the government
[ ] Die in the arms of a loved one
[ ] Be cremated
[ ] Have my funeral like a party
[ ] Complete my funeral with a long video of me
[ ] Have my ashes scattered somewhere special to me
[ ] BE REMEMBERED

Chatboard (11)

  • GT_Azriel
    Sue always comes up to me and says "you are the best Bonnie, you make great pizzas". Next time she does that I'm gonna say "that's why I make the big money" (yeah at minimum wage right? lol)
  • GT_Azriel
    Bitches don't know about MAH BOI !!!!
  • Laserous
    @GT_Azriel - OMG LOL Yeah Boy cat NEVER comes into focus.. LETS SHAVE HIM!!
  • GT_Azriel
    If you stare long enough at the sun; you will burn your retinas. If you stare long enough at food; you can go past being hungry and not need it. If you stare long enough at boy-cat; you will realize that he will never be in focus
  • GT_Azriel
    And always cross the road long ways; just like slitting your wrists longways, it's more dangerous, deadly, and fun. Be safe!
  • GT_Azriel
    There's a time in a man's life when he reflects on his past and realizes that teh conditioning doesn't matter. Everything that was taught needs to be unlearned so he can progress further and learn to be comfortable with both himself and teach society to be comfortable with him. This is the reason yo
  • Laserous
    @GT_Azriel - Sounds fun as hell. I would absolutely love to do that.
  • GT_Azriel
    You are a sexy motherfucker.. I just want to grab you, lay you down, and fuck your brains out like no one has before.
  • GT_Azriel
    meow >^.^< ok j/k You're aren't a bad person, you never have been. I love you for who you are and always have.
  • Amaikokonut
    Meow ;_;

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